There's A Change Happenin'

Change is hard for me, in fact I don't like it.  For someone like me who worries to no end, change is scary.  But I as I get older I realize "change" is the only true constant in our lives.  Yes it can be bad at times, but it can also be wonderful.  I am really trying to learn to go more with the flow.  I feel like I need to be in control all the time, but really control is just an illusion.  (This is my Freshman Psychology class being put to good use!)

Change in my diet is hard.  I don't like counting sugar grams, and feeling deprived.  I miss my carbs.  For me and a lot of people, carbs are such a comfort food.  Not being able to have that "comfort" is difficult.  My relationship with food has never been a healthy one.  And not having food as my crutch is freaking hard.  Right now I am struggling to make this change.  I am staying committed, but right now it is day by day. 
Last week I lost 5 pounds and Jeff lost 4 pounds.

Change in my sleep.  I picked up my CPAP machine last week.  I am really struggling with this.  It's not comfortable and I take my mask/head gear off every night in my sleep.  I know I have to give it a chance, but right now I HATE everything about it.  This machine can have such a positive change in my health, and I am fighting the damn thing tooth and nail - but I will keep at it.

Right now these are two changes I am really struggling with.  However, these are changes I must make.  I will get there....I have to.