Amazing Grace

Gracie passed away Wednesday night. April 4, 2012.  She was diagnosed with kidney failure, something that is apparently very common in older dogs.  Needless to say Jeff and I were shocked.  It felt as if the wind had been knocked out of me and now panic and desperation were setting in.  As I fought back tears, I asked the Veterinarian question after question, but no answer was one that I wanted to hear.  How dare he come in here and turn my world upside down.  By this point I could no longer hold back the tears and the Vet left the room to give Jeff and I time to talk.  As soon as the door closed, all I could think about was how I wanted to grab her and run.  Run away with my sweet girl and protect her from all of this.  We came to the conclusion that we needed to do what was best for Gracie and not us.  IV fluid might buy us a day, but there was nothing to save her.  By this point she was weak and tired, and I knew I had to let her go.  We said are goodbyes to her, and when it was time Jeff rubbed her back and I whispered into her ear and kissed her face.  And then she was gone. 

My heart is broken. I can't even put into words how much I miss her and yet at the same time I am still in shock.  Grief is strange that way. 

Grace was an amazing dog, and she will be missed by so many.